Theres someone who i really like,
And i really wana do tell that person,
but before i do so,i want to challenge myself,


1. i'm going to be a better person!
2. I'm going to choose to deal with the worst thing to test my faithfulness
3. I' want to be the person who is willing to sacrifise my happiness,my needs just for her happiness.
4. regardless of circumstances,i want to be someone, who will always be there
5. Love her for who she is,and not what she has
6. Be patient and tolerant

Flaws?Thats alright,everyone have em : /,its something i gotta deal with,and despite how bad her flaws are,i'm willing to deal with it, reason given is really simple,because i love her.

Till i make this commitment,i wont confess,As i find that i'm not serious if i dont follow these.

sigh,cant blog feeling this down after my o level results.i doubt i'll blog in my public blog for a long while,so i guess this private blog is going to be my ranting corner for a bit.

A hug?..
A shoulder to cry on?..

you know..its times like this, i finally realise what does commiting suicide means,
it means to run away from your problems.
And i wont run away.

Those wall,screaming.

this is going to be a really long post: /

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sheer stupidity.

i was talking today and keith told me something,
''if you cant stand her worst,you dont deserve her best''

there are so many times,we're so afraid,that if you try to lecture someone off for their own good,for example, refusing to see a doctor even though she/he is really ill and we constantly beg the person to go and visit a doctor,we're so afraid that the person will hate us,find us annoying,but..keith did say to me that.. if i'm afraid of all those,do i even deserve a best?

I'm totally too selfish,thinking about'' oh,will she hate me?'' ''i guess i better not tell her,as she'll hate me after that''.Was ''what she think of me'' always matter to me? I'm that narrow minded..am i?Man..totally never knew..

Sometimes loving someone means doing the right thing,and not about yourself.

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CHEER UP! :D